Thursday, February 28, 2013

The New Legendary out today with three of my flash!

I have quite a legendary history up at The Legendary. Since 2009 I've had five stories and four poems placed there. It's nice to know some good people, such as Katie Moore and Jim Parks, (the man nicknamed "The Legendary" by the state police of Texas, hence the name of this journal.)

This time the acceptance came from Jon Thrower, which is awesome because when editors change it is always nice that there is still room for my work

The story behind the three flash:

"Where Do They Bury The Survivors" -This one is mostly true. My late buddy, Paul Felopolous actually did save some people, when a cruise ship sank which he never told me about. The rest was me going off to the races.



"Full Moon"- It's a haunting moon and when you accept it, it's all about gratitude. This is a piece about sobriety, though it is masked a bit.



"About Shooting"- Is one of the grittiest pieces I've ever written. It may fit in handsomely in the series which I ask that question .  This one needs no hints but it involves pornographic films, drugs and dead ends. If this ever got filmed, it would be in the genre of noir.




Other fiction and by






Tuesday, February 26, 2013

my dear god, we are all so small


photo by Christy Marx


There's something about death which brings us back to the little things not being important,  the big things being so and everything needing to be kept simple. "Just love each other" is the simplest common denominator, in my opinion, yet often I forget,  as there are so many battles in life, many of them stupid, some not so.

So Christy Marx. I'd not been in touch with you, my friend for six months and then I heard she was gone.

So here is something from the "way back machine", a poem published in The Blood Orange Review which seems appropriate today.

She also followed my writing, and would reference the poem of mine (below) often, as she did on the anniversary of my first year sober. (Maybe the only piece of mine she ever read?)




Missteps

When I raised my hand
told a gray room the reasons I started drinking,
I wanted to start again immediately.
Told people, whose faces looked like
The End of the World, the truth.

Then I told them I would pour that girl
I had lusted for down like whiskey,
her lovely legs spread until they snapped,
so I could feel like I used
her, an orgasm, I gulped, which rained

down my neck like streams of veins.
Oh, I said I never used dope,
when I asked her for it
nicely, she said,  No,
she never would give it up,

just got up, waltzed out of my life.
So I begged: Please, God, stay with me
tonight, here in this basement. Please,
I can't picture heaven.

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Your sense of humor was wonderfully twisted. It will be one of the things I'll always think about when I think of you. Farewell, my friend.









Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Further info on "Men in the Company of Women" anthology


I wrote in October who was in it.  Now I'm going to give a few more details. This book is a 390 plus page monster, edited by Apryl Skies and Alicia Winski  is now available HERE, which includes two of my poems "Hope", "Losing My Best Friend to Heroin" and a flash fiction, "Their Own Planet".

In her forward Winski notes, "In ‘LOSING MY BEST FRIEND TO HEROIN’’
by Timothy Gager, the perceptions I’ve always held about men in general
as being emotionally impregnable were dissipated by stark words of
regretful and reluctant acceptance of a friend’s determination to self-destruct."

If you are interested, pick up a copy. 


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Editing (more like cutting and pasting): The grittiest piece I've ever written on NG. Here's the schedule.

Over at New Graffiti, where I roll as a blogger and editor,  I've hand picked writers to submit the grittiest piece they've ever written.



 Many have come back with the question, "What do you mean?"

My response to them: "Hard hitting. Something so raw that you're uncomfortable or would be uncomfortable reading it aloud in front of a small group of friends or (gasp) family members."

So far the publication date line-up, which takes me up to November 2013.

1/7      Meg Tuite
1/21    Rusty Barnes
2/4      Teisha Twomey
2/18    Lavinia Ludlow
3/4      Jon Konrath
3/18    Howie Good
4/1      John Sheppard
4/15    Matthew Salesses
4/29    Jen Michalski
5/6      Len Kuntz
5/20    Robert Vaughn
6/3      Wendy Ellis
6/17    Barry Graham
7/1      Sarah Sweeney
7/15    Susan Tepper
7/29    Nathaniel Tower
8/12     xTx
8/26    Jenna Humphrey
9/9      Aleathia Drehmer   
9/23    Jackie Corley
10/7    Matt Potter
10/21  Steve Glines
11/4    Brian Sousa
11/18  CD Collins
12/2    Kristen Tsetsi
12/16  Matt Potter
12/20




Friday, January 11, 2013

The Exquisite Quartet Anthology 2012--All together the stories worked on all together


Meg Tuite is at it again. I told you about the piece I worked on with Meg, Dena Rash Guzman and Robin Stratton last month. The anthology of all the Equisite Quartets throughout 2012 is now available.


Exquisite Quartet Anthology 2012 is the composite of 12 collaborative stories, one each month, in which Meg Tuite and three other writers write a story in succession. Writers included are: Jordan Blum, Andrea Carlisle, James Claffey, Larry O. Dean, Gay Degani, Faye Rapoport DesPres, Mary Stone Dockery, Aleathia Drehmer, Timothy Gager, Clifford Garstang, Dena Rash Guzman, Deborah Henry, Julie Innis, Linda Hedrick, Nate Jordon, Len Kuntz, Ken McPherson, Court Merrigan, Kary Nguyen, Kristine Ong Muslim, Alex Pruteanu, Joseph A.W. Quintela, Misti Rainwater-Lites, Stephen V. Ramey, Kevin Ridgeway, Leah Rogin-Roper, Linda Simoni-Wastila, Robin Stratton, Ben Tanzer, Angelle Scott, Neil Serven, Samuel Snoek-Brown and Erin Zulkoski. And 33 writers for the March AWP story. An exceptional group of writers!

The anthology rocks as much as the High Fidelity Star Trek Quartet


Wednesday, January 9, 2013

THE NEXT BIG THING



  Nate Tower from Bartleby Snopes
 made a data base for this



So, what is the Next Big Thing? A series of questions for writers. The rules? You post answers to the questions below on a Wednesday, and then tag other writers you admire and want others to discover. I was tagged by Lavinia Ludlow who authored “alt-punk” and the soon to be released "Single Stroke Seven" And so it begins…

Question: What is the [working] title of your book/work in progress?

Answer: The Thursday Appointments of Bill Sloan

Q: What is a one-sentence synopsis of your book?

A: A story a man whose job it is to help people, but in reality, he is inept, sarcastic, and each and every day represents something to get through.

Q: Who or what inspired you to write this book?

A: I wrote a flash piece of about 500 words called "An Angry Psychologist's Wednesday Appointment". I was able to expand it by 88,000 more words.

Q: What else might pique the reader’s interest in your book?

A: The characters and how they change---their recovery with or without Bill and finally Bill's transformation.

Q: Where did the idea for the book/work come from?

A: I enjoy quirky people in my own life. Originally it was going to be a novel in flash but now it's a novel formatted in quick short sections.

Q: What genre does the book fall under?

A: Contemporary fiction

Q: Which actors would you choose to play the characters from your book?

A: John Kusick, Jennifer Connelly, Charlize Theron, Sean Penn, Jaime Fox, Elisabeth Shue, male child actor TBA, Philip Seymour Hoffman and Hopi the wolf as himself.

Q: How long did it take you to write the first-draft of your manuscript?

A: About a year but 75% of it was written in three months

Q: Will your book be self-published or represented by an agent?

A: It will be anything but self-published.

Now it's time for Meg Tuite, Robert Vaughan, Rusty Barnes, Len Kuntz, John L. Sheppard


Tuesday, January 8, 2013

A new kind of announcement: Old work unpublished by Squawk Back!


How did this


1) Dear Mr. Gager,

We regret to inform you that we have decided to pull your piece, Fireworks , from Squawk Back's archives. Please do not take this to mean that we did not at the time, and do not currently, thoroughly enjoy your piece: our decisions have been informed more by whether a given piece fits well with the overall aesthetic of Squawk Back, less their aesthetic merit,—in which we, undoubtedly, believed when we selected them for publication. 

Therefore, we enthusiastically encourage you to re-submit this piece to other publications in which it may be a better fit—which would be especially advantageous for its author, as having your work buried in the archives of a publication with whose tone it doesn't particularly accord redounds to neither our abilities to promote and disseminate a uniformity of content; nor your own, to provide content appropriate to a given publication.

Sincerely, 

SQUAWK BACK



p.s. I dislike you


become this?


2) WOW! You're RIGHT! It IS amazing that I'm trying to run a literary publication that isn't an abysmal piece of shit littered with undercooked subpornographic literary farts. God, I mean, WHO COULD BELIEVE that I might regret a hasty publication choice from a year and a half ago when I published a new issue every 5 days and hence the standard was a lot lower.


and then later this?

3) Timothy, the only reason I dislike you is that you were incredibly rude to me whenever I interacted with you electronically. If someone told me he disliked me, and I had no idea why, I would probably ask him, or represent to my fan page this inexplicable and strange turn of events. I can't help but feel that your reaction suggests that you knew why.

I guess they weren't telling me how they really felt.  After I read the first e-mail it seemed like it was their way of communicating that there was a dead link. Journals and magazines have the right to archive anything that they want, even if the rest of the issue was kept in tact. Yes, I was disappointed but when I went to check the dead link I was greeted by a video of a laughing dog. At the time of publication he was very positive about Fireworks, tweeting,   "A disconcertingly sexual prose poem".  We've come a long way to get to "undercooked subpornographic literary farts."


Then I reread the e-mail and very small, under their tag lines were the words ( p.s. I dislike you) . As I've mentioned, it's fine to do what you'd like with your journal but the smug and insulting way it was done was pretty amazing. I was still in the dark about the big picture, as number two and number three statements from above have yet to be posted.

I hate being in the dark. Might it have been a mistake? Who dislikes me and why? I had to check on the editor, as maybe it was someone I may have pissed off. The editor was Zak Block whom, to my knowledge,  I've had zero interactions with but upon further review he had blocked me on Facebook.


So I went public and received a lot of support--none on the merit of the work but rather that "it was a rotten thing to have happened to you", like a car running through a puddle and soaking you at the curb. Some posted a screen shot of the cache and posted it on their pages.

Obviously the word got back to those folks at Squawk Back, as they posted the "WOW! You're RIGHT! " status on their Facebook page. Interesting that there was also another post that either either rightfully kissed the ass of or complimented in a backhanded way, Roxanne Gay, who openly commented that their staff's handling of my being unpublished as "unbelievable".

Still, I have to ask, if the powers at Squawk Back disliked it so much why did they publish it in the first place?

Was it this?
"...whose tone it doesn't particularly accord redounds to neither our abilities to promote and disseminate a uniformity of content; nor your own, to provide content appropriate to a given publication"

Perhaps. Or was it this?

"God, I mean, WHO COULD BELIEVE that I might regret a hasty publication choice from a year and a half ago when I published a new issue every 5 days and hence the standard was a lot lower."

WHO COULD BELIEVE a new magazine might be ok with lower standards when they are in a rush to publish every five days and such. It seems to say, "we published work we considered not so good, but now it's going to be better." Why bother publishing it to begin with? Again, I don't care if you like or dislike my writing or if you like or dislike me but if you claim to "run a literary publication that isn't an abysmal piece of shit"  All I care about is the professionalism in which you dealt with  me which appears to be quite abysmal. 

Personally, I'd rather not submit to journals that seem glad to welcome you and then, later, throw you under the bus. I have a slight negative opinion on that. I also have a slight negative opinion of on-line journals that don't archive to begin with, but it's not going to ruin my day if that's all upfront.  I understand that it's a case of archiving and bandwidth which can be expensive--except, of course, if it's a free blog your posting on, or perhaps not being lazy to move work to a free blog--either way if you are going to archive, then please archive. 

I want to stress that the removing of work in itself is less of a big deal then the disrespectful way it was done. There is a way to point out that you smell badly without leaving a bar of soap in your locker with a note that says, "Here you go, smelly." Honestly, you might be doing me a favor by removing work of mine from the internet that may stink up the joint.
 

If my three paragraph flash piece no longer existed in the world it will not make or break my writing career or my goals for my writing. One single opinion that my work is not up to snuff will not discourage me to write any more or any less but what I bring out of this is why would anyone publish with a journal that may unpublish them at any time in the future? Maybe it was because I was rude at some point, a point that I don't remember but Zak Block later mentioned on Facebook:


"it's not relevant because it isn't why I pulled the story."

**********************************************************

Post blog, 11:30 AM:
Statements numbered 2 and 3 have been removed or deleted from their site. Also the post about Roxanne Gay was removed. That's good stuff right there.

Post blog, Part 2, 12:55 PM:
I heard from Zak Block who said I could share "Anyway, I read your blogpost and everything you said is pretty much accurate, I have no complaints and am more than willing to admit that I was wrong and might have been taking a few liberties of the imagination in inferring your electronic conduct as rude, for which reason I apologize. (This isn't intended to be a confidential apology, I am more than happy for you to show it to people.) Sorry again and happy trails."


Thursday, December 27, 2012

My Top Ten Viewed Blog Posts of 2012

David Letterman does a nightly Top Ten List. Here's one of the most fun. It didn't suck. 






Year end Top Ten lists are kind of silly, so what the hell, why shouldn't I join in the "fun"? Without any further verbiage, here are the most viewed posts from  2012, in reverse order with a quick comment about why it made the list.


10. Microw 6 is out! Pleased to be in it-- taking on insomnia and "The Little Prince"


Reason: People love the little prince and if you have insomnia you were up at all hours reading this post. 


Reason: People love to google themselves. This post lists a huge number of the contributors, editors, etc. Lummox also came back after hiatus and there was some interest in that.


Reason: People love the Chiller hand video! 


Reason: People search for Neco Case a lot. 


Reason: People have fond memories of the It's a Small World Ride at Disney. I remember hearing a story about someone stuck inside that ride when it malfunctioned. They were directed to wade out of the scuzzy water after a few hours. I bet they read this blog!

Reason: What do you get when a viral facebook post from a fake gazillion dollar lottery winner meets a great publisher in Right Hand Pointing, meets massive reposts by great supportive people? That's right, the number five most popular blog posting! 


Reason: People love a good screw up. The irony is that this post only redirects to the story of the screw up I named in the New Graffiti blog. 


Reason: People were damn curious about my sobriety. Was the story about that? No, but the story has many satiric references about a fellowship I know and love . 


Reason: People are interested or people are stalkers. Pick one. 

And the number One most viewed blog post of 2012

1. In Between Altered States publishes, "No Sex Since Last Spring"


Reason: Sex sells. 




Thursday, December 20, 2012

Year in Review, 2012. Everything published in the past 11 months, 20 days.


Just so I don't fall behind on the list for making lists in 2012, here is my full list of writing credits for the year.

Numbers wise, it was pretty good (46 widgets)--not my best year, but quality wise I feel very good about the year I had. Lord knows, I love numbers.




19 works of fiction went out in the world this year (3 in print, 16 online) and 27 poems (14 in print, 13 online). The full list is below, with links to most of them. 




SHORT, FLASH, AND MICRO FICTION

"Happy Holidays", December 17, 2012 Meg Tuite’s Exquisite Quartet at Used Furniture
(written with Meg Tuite, Dena Rash Guzman and Robin Stratton)


"The Lottery Winner" , December 1, 2012 Right Hand Pointing #58

"Sometimes There Are Things Which Come Out of the Darkness" , November 14, 2012 Oddball Magazine

"Some Things You Might Not Have Realized" , October 27, 2012 Unshod Quills

"No Sex Since Last Spring" , September 1, 2012 In Between Altered States, #28

"Mental Notes From Catechism" , July 30, 2012 Matchbook

"Girl With A Gun" , July 15, 2012 Connotation Press audio "Girl With a Gun" included
"What You Dream About"
"Continuum"

"Hello Iceman" , July 2, 2012 Paragraph Line

"This Tornado Loves You" , June 25, 2012 JMWW, Summer, 2012

"Loveville" , June 19, 2012 Fried Chicken and Coffee

"How Do You Love A Capitalist?" , June 8, 2012 Paragraph Line

"Their Own Planet" , April 9, 2012 Paragraph Line

"Chiller" , April 2, 2012 In Between Altered States #2


 "Coffee Maker" , March 20, 2012 trnsfr magazine V

"Six Facts about Influencing Baseball in Heaven" , February 2, 2012 Final Fenway Fiction:
More Stories from Red Sox Nation


"If We Don't Think, We Will Sleep" , February 1, 2012 Microw 6

"A Circus Story" , January 1, 2012 Right Hand Pointing




POETRY

"Far Away in Iowa"
November 19, 2012,Ibbetson street 32, Print

"My Heart in San Francisco"
"Quintessential Awkward Male Moment"
November 17, 2012,Fuck Poems, Print

"June"
November 16, 2012,Spoonful

"You knew me before"
November 5, 2012,Gutter Eloquence

"No one really knows when it Happens"
"Ironing Under an Old Dusty Picture of a Wheat Field"
"Love Affair"
October 24, 2012,Zig Zag Folios, Print

"Walking Out of the Woods"
October 21, 2012,Lummox Magazine, Print

"What is Missing"
"your luscious lips"
July 18, 2012 Thunder Sandwich

"We Were Once Friends"
May 21, 2012 Bagels with the Bards 7

"Suffolk Downs"
April 26, 2012 Poiesis 5

"When It is Still Winter"
April 11, 2012 The Somerville News

"reply to someone who said, u owe me a poem, boy "
April 10, 2012 Extract(s)

"reply to the grumpy cashier at the fast food restaurant"
"Exclamation for a Separation which happened long Ago"
April 4, 2012 Fried Chicken and Coffee

"All The Days And Nights "
March 13, 2012 Red Fez

“My Girlfriend’s car is officially dead”
“reply to someone who said there’s a lot of not-happy going around”
“This IS Bitchin’”
“Wait-You Can’t Hide It.”
"Missteps"
March 2, 2012, Dead Mule School of Southern Literature

"After Smoking Dope""
"Sam Jesus in the Tub"
“Why We Listen to the Universe”
"To Care About Life"
February 26, 2012, Hip Poetry 2012
 







Monday, December 17, 2012

Does not play well with others except Tuite, Guzman and Stratton

Doing things around the holidays with groups of people becomes a Christmas party. Sometimes you can't dress up or take Bob Dylan anywhere


Here's "Happy Holidays" by myself, Robin Stratton, Dena Rash Guzman and Meg Tuite.

In the past I've written and published works of fiction with Elizabeth Rawlins (1, 2 and 3), Renee Angers with one recent and yet unpublished story co-written with Teisha Twomey. The process of each of these have involved writing back and forth to and at each other.

Meg Tuite (she seems to be everywhere) oversaw an equisite corpse holiday story today in Used Furnature.  It had a few attempts that I was not up to snuff with. In the first attempt, I transformed a sex trade story into Cinderella. That didn't work. The second attempt I was supposed to end the story and I turned the character I was working with, Sally, and disguised her as Santa Claus for the party. Again it didn't work. I concluded I work much better when I do my own set-up, arc and ending. (I don't play well with others!)

Meg stuck with me and I was able to add a few lines of dialog and a paragraph or so--and I was able to be  included with this fine crew.

  The story came out today and like opening a surprise package I was thrilled to find out that I had written with Dena Rash Guzman and Robin Stratton.


Other holiday collaborations aren't as good as ours! Take this one made with "103% love" Ho ho ho!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

It's not a hoax! Right Hand Pointing publishes "The Lottery Winner"

I have a new story, "The Lottery Winner" up today at Right Hand Pointing #58. It's a winner. It is unlike  fake winner Nolan Daniels who put up on facebook that he won the Powerball Jackpot. It baffles me (actually it doesn't) that people believe things at face value. It baffles me further that people like Daniels goal in life it seems to be "to make something go viral". He should start screwing without a rubber then.



It is also unlike, Shirley Jackson. Here she is reading her famous iconic piece,"The Lottery" in two videos, Parts 1 and 2. She, unlike Daniels, is not a douchebag








As for my story own story, here's the rub: Any portrayal of douchebags real or imagined are purely coincidental. A lottery winner deserves to dance, right T?

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Also in this great issue:

In This Issue

Monday, November 19, 2012

Ibbetson 32 with a great cast and a poem of mine, "Far Away in Iowa"

 Ibbetson Street has been around in print for 16 years. It is a press run by Doug Holder, which produces a bi-annual magazine and many books of poetry. My poem "Far Away in Iowa" was originally written in a series intended to represent a cross-country drive. I was planning 48 poems for each state in the connected United States. It was a project I never finished, but there were a few which saw the light of day. "Howdy in Ohio" appeared in These Poems Are Not Pink Clouds published by Propaganda Press. "When I'm Drunk, I Think About Phoenix" appeared in the Endicott Review, "Sweet Cold Chicago" was published in Bagels With the Bards Anthology III and "Boston to Providence" was originally in Gutter Eloquence..

For the record I only poetically drove to four states but I versed my way from Boston to Arizona. 



New Ibbetson Street 32 with poems by

Afaa Michael Weaver, Daniel Langton, Ellaraine Lockie, Philip E. Burnham, Miriam Levine, Sandy McCord, Robert K. Johnson, Ben Mazer, Dennis Daly, Bert Stern, Bob Brooks, Irene Koronas, Amelia Wilbur Riggs, Simon Perchik, Wendell Smith, Ruth O'Callaghan, Jonaae DeSimone Reynolds, Joan Kimball, Helen Marie Casey, Tom Yuill, John P. Kristofco, Charles Sabukewicz
, Lyn Lifshin, Judith Skillman, Adria Holmes, Diana Der-Hovanessian, Geeta Tewari, Elizabeth Eliz Hanson, Joyce Meyers, Carol Hamilton, Lainie Senechal, Lawrence Kessenich, Mark Pawlak, Teisha Dawn Twomey, Jesse Mavro Diamond, X.J. Kennedy, Linda M. Fisher, Nina Rubinstein Alonso, Sheryl White, Cynthia Duda, Marty Walsh, Jean Monahan, Deborah Finkelstein, Emily Pineau, Christine Kennedy, Chris Warner, Timothy Gager, Elizabeth Doran, Ed Gaitling, Peter Fulton, Harris Gardner and David R. DiSarro



As far as this video goes, Dar Williams was noted in the acknowledgement in my book Short Street, as I was listening to a lot of her  music while I was writing some very dark stuff. Iowa was on that playlist.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Stone Soup's Spoonful Journal releases some issues.

Credit Chad Parenteau, proprietor of Stone Soup Poetry in Cambridge for the release of Spoonful Journal, the on-line magazine for the Stone Soup poets. Stone Soup is one of the longest running weekly poetry series in the entire world, originally was run by the late Jack Powers (blogged about here) and then Chad successfully took the reins, when Jack became ill.

My poem "June" appears in Issue Five.  Spoonful also released  Issue Six today, A Tribute to Jack Powers.

Here's some poetry from Chad Parenteau






and here's Spoonful's  Press Release:


Issue Five Featuring:

A TRIBUTE SECTION TO BROTHER BLUE.

COLLABORATIONS BY

Valerie Loveland, Samantha Milowsky, Michael F. Gill and Chad Parenteau,

OTHER POEMS BY:

Beatriz Alba del Rio, Mike Amado, Maggie Cleveland, Nate Connors, Ry Frazier, Timothy Gager, Michael F. Gill, Marc D. Goldfinger, Paul Haypenny, Coleen T. Houlihan, Laurel Lambert, Valerie Loveland, Samantha Milowsky, Bridget Murphy, Joanna Nealon, Chad Parenteau, April Penn, Jack Powers, Dan Provost, Zvi A. Sesling, Patrick S., Luis Lazaro Tijerina, and Rafael Woolf.

ARTWORK BY:

James Conant, (The) Marshall, David Marshall Janice Raynor, and Su Red.

And of course there's...

ISSUE #6

THE JACK POWERS TRIBUTE ISSUE

POEMS BY:

C.C. Arshagra, Christine Casner, Susie Davidson, Raffael De Gruttola, Edward S. Gault, Marc D. Goldfinger, Carolyn Gregory, Yuri (Riq) Hospodar, Doug Holder, Walter Howard, Lawrence Kessenich, Gordan Marshall, Felipe Victor Martinez, Ryk McIntyre, Bridget Murphy, Joanna Nealon, Chad Parenteau, Bill Perrault, Su Red, Ryan "Rat" Travis, Jame Van Looy, Carol Weston and Jack Powers.